Thursday, April 7, 2011

Hit by a Ton of Bricks

Wow the last couple of days has been hard.  I am feeling the emotional hangover of events out of my control.  Vivid dreams and wakefulness.  Depression and sadness.  And then the 2 earthquakes hit.  Japan and Vera Cruz, Mexico.  No reports that I have heard of injuries, thank god.  Maybe tonight's sleep will be restful. 

Lots of change taking place in my life.  I don't really like all of it, but as I said, it is out of my control.  I have suddenly become faced with filling a lot of free time.  I am not sure what I am going to do with it.  I have discovered a hobby that I am enjoying so far.  Gardening in pots on my deck.  I need to find something else.  I never realized how much I like projects.  I just finished one and I am casting about for another. 

I have this thing about keeping busy.  Always have to have something going on.  Don't get me wrong, I am not always on the move.  This last week when my daughter was ill, I spent the whole day on the couch with her watching Netflix.  I know how to do nothing.  But most of the time I want to do Something.  I want to keep my brain engaged.  I want to interact with my friends.  Although lately that seems to not be happening.  Everyone is busy with their own lives.  Face to face interaction is becoming rare.  Seems it is all electronic these days.  I'd give anything for a real hug.

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